I Can't hate Him

I write in early March, a week after I wrote  "God answered my prayer"

Don't know why, I could never hate him.
after all the pain, tears came out, and angry, 
I still can't hate him.

although now I know that he already has another woman at his side,
I still can not hate him.
I always wanted there to help him,
I want to be able to listen to what he experienced that day, all the story.
no matter how hard me to hate him, I still can't.

Sometimes I am confused what to do to hate him,
but no matter how hard I tried to hate him,
I realize that I still love him ..