in the same way :(

That day I feel sad and angry at the same time. I feel my heart and my head will explode.
I finally decided to stay at my friend's house. where they listened to all my stories, wiped my tears, make suggestions, and hold my hand with love.
they are angry with what he did to me, they were disappointed, because they know the real story and they know how I tried to fix it.
they help me so that I can continue my life without looking back. I'm sure if they make me stronger, and I get through all this trouble.

then I'm sure I could, although I'm sure this pain is a process towards a better start. but my heart says otherwise.
I'm confused, and until now I'm confused, what should I do, what steps I should take.