Unexpected

I wrote 3 months ago in my little book

Establish a relationship with a commitment for a year is not easy, many of which I feel happy, sad, angry, and feel disappointed. I loved him, even more than I love myself. I accept him with what is, I do not see who their parents, or family backgrounds. I tried to help him to become a better person, although not easy.

I really have made ​​a huge mistake. but not having an affair with someone else. something that did break the commitment, then I plead guilty and promised not to do it. I changed all my life pattern. and that I do for me, him and our relationship.
I became someone else, I really leave my bad habit only to our relationship, because we decided to go to the next stage which is more serious. I introduced him to my extended family, giving all my love to him, to help when he fell.

but everything I did didn't mean anything to him.
several months passed he treated me like a woman who never existed and meant to his life. 3 months after the incident, he decided to leave me just like that without thinking of all my efforts to fix it, he left me without thinking about my feelings.
he left me with a reason that can not be accepted.

I realize a sense of sadness, pain, and all the tears that I spend not going to change anything. but this time I could only cry. I can not think straight, I lost my direction, I do not dare to look ahead and imagine what happens tomorrow.