between good and stupid

Already 3 months since he decided to leave and choose another woman to replace my position. and until now I never stopped loving him and hope he will come back to me. maybe my way to forget it was not optimal, but I admit hard.

I still really love him and care about him. I'll do anything as long as I can spend the day with him even if only through a short message, I wanted to be his friend, I'd love to share with him, feeling happy, feeling sad, angry, or upset even though now I'm not the woman he loved most.

although at the same time I was sad when I heard her name called, but I'll try to keep the pain was as strong as possible. Although I know you do good on me only if there are willing, I will remain good to you. because I love you so much. I really miss you, the expression of your face, your laughter, your smile, your perfume. if I start to feel it I can only cry and pray to God, or I hugged the doll and hoped it was you.
perhaps people will say I'm stupid because I still love and care to those who were not at all concerned with my feelings.

Lord help me to get through it all, if he is the best for me to return it to me, grow back his affection to me, 

and opened its doors sorry for everything I've done, give me a chance to fix it again.

Lord if he is not the best for me, keep it away from me, make me hate him and make me to stop loving. 

and I give his successor a man who ternbaik and loves me sincerely.

Lord, I beg you give me the best according to you, because I did not get through all this without your help. 

I believe you will not leave me when I'm need you and your protection. I surrender to you Lord.